This is something I’m currently struggling with a lot - trusting myself, being positive, trusting that I can and will create what I want/need, etc. Currently for me I feel like it’s something that has to be worked on, but I don’t think that’s actually how it should be, and I think I’m tripping myself up with some negative beliefs. So I don’t really have any answers to your questions (although I’m sure other, more experienced people will ) .
I just wanted to tell you it’s awesome that you have so many questions. They’re very often things that I’ve wondered myself that I’ve been trying to figure out. So it’s very helpful for me to see the answers and it’s extremely helpful to know I’m not the only one on this journey, progressing through this stuff. Thank you for always asking things!