(To Vickie:) There is, in the main, only one kind of betrayal. Your feelings will never betray you. Your instinctive self will never betray you. Only you can betray your feelings by being distrustful of them. They are a portion of yourself. They are a way that you look at the reality that you know. It is only when you inhibit or deny them that harmful charges are built up that can affect others. Each person has his own built in defense mechanism against your ill will. And while your ill will, and the ill will of each of you, carries some charge, it is not nearly strong enough to upset the balance of a personality who is determined to accept their own feelings and live their own lives. Normally accepted and recognized in, the feelings are picked up by others, but they are recognized as learning mechanisms. Their reactions and your reactions are made known to the inner self. You know how you stand. If an individual offends you, and you honestly accept your feelings, then he knows of this and is simply made aware of a circumstance. In this instance you are offended, then he can make whatever changes he so chooses, but if you ignore the feeling and the affair happens again, then the charge is built up and becomes harmful. And then he may be hit by the super charge at some later date.
([Vickie:] “That’s what I fear.”)
Then express the feelings as they come to you, and there is nothing to fear. This will free you to express joy and love. You cannot inhibit the recognition of one feeling without getting into the habit of inhibiting all your feelings. If you distrust one feeling, then feeling itself becomes fearful, and you inhibit it. It is as if the sky then decided to reject the black clouds and then, through association, decided to reject the white clouds; and, through association, to reject anything at all that might appear within it.
([Vickie:] “What am I going to do with all these charges that I’ve got built up?”)
Simply recognize that they exist as realities, whether or not, intellectually, you accept them. Emotionally accept them, then see them as natural phenomena in the same way that you observe the splendor and strength of a storm, and then let them flow out of you and outward into the great healing universe that uses both storms and emotions creatively. Trust the vitality of life and the universe, recognize the feelings and let them flow out of you. The universe knows what to do with them. It does no good to put a lid on to hold them in, only you explode.
Now when you get a copy of this session read it and let the feelings go as rain or wind or lightening.
([Vickie:] “I wondered why we had so many lightening storms this year.”)
We should have you shipped to another area.
Feelings are life, feelings are consciousness. The gods do not dwell in some nirvana innocent of everything that you know. This is energy and you are using it and learning what to do with it. Now, peace.
I will shortly end our session. You have been playing around but you have done a very good job of it, and you are on the outskirts, and you all know it, but that is all right.
Now if you inhibit your feelings you can, to a large extent, even inhibit your dream experience, and this is aside from monitoring your own dream memories. Therefore, much information that is available to you, you will automatically censor and not use to its true value.
Now, to some small extent this evening, you are learning to apply generalized emotions in a personal sense. The words are meaningless, and when you use them, they are shaky, indeed. It is like playing around with the letter `A’ without making words of it. Simply the discussion itself, and your own inner questions, will begin processes of discovery within yourselves. And I can say here (Sue); in particularly here (Venice); and here (Janey); and here (?), for these forces have already begun.
Concepts are extremely important and we will never leave them aside in class, but you must learn to experience a concept, and in order to do so, you must realize the importance of your own inner experience. And since many of you are not doing too well out of class in this regard, you can do it in class. There is no need whatsoever to be fearful. Instead, you should look forward to some exaltation.